01 March 2009

opening of the heart

It is Sunday. Sacred Sunday. The fire in the studio is flaming as I sit down to honor the day.
I am in the midst of an amazing workshop called Heartbeat with Jonathon Horan, son of the creator of 5Rhythms, a movement meditation. This weekend, we are smoking the peace pipe with our emotions- embracing them as part of who we are and what we are becoming. Fear is my emotion- anxiety, paranoia, distrust. Yesterday, I danced it through my tears to reach the layer of sadness that lay just under the surface. Sadness grieving for those things I have left behind, those that will never be, and for the emptiness of not allowing all of me to live outloud. On the other side, I see a glimpse of emancipation. Liberation. Celebration. I feel the heart starting to crack open...and it is divine.

Here are Jonathon's words about Heartbeat:

My intention as a teacher, and in my own emotional evolution, is to practice staying present with feelings. So it is with great tenderness that I approach this journey into the heart, the part of us that beats and pumps and gives and receives and takes the old and transforms it into the new, purifying us, every minute of every day. Using the 5Rhythms as a map to how our emotional energy morphs and moves, we will explore our emotions as energy, as power, as part of being human.

The wilderness of our hearts scares us. We haven’t been taught to track our feelings, much less respect them. In fact, we often feel ashamed of them when they do pop up. Even in our own families we hold back, dismiss and deny true responses. Even in the dark of the movie theater we swallow our tears. This is very sad. We’ve lost our spontaneity. Why do we give fear so much power?

To befriend our emotions, to not be frozen by fear, is our destiny on this dancing path. Fear is the clearest meter of our edge, the edge where we feel comfortable and grounded. When we start to feel uncomfortable, it’s a challenge. A challenge is an invitation to move from who we are into who we are becoming. The bigger the fear, the more important it is for us to face it. It’s not just a stoplight, it’s a huge road sign: COME DANCE WITH ME.

Let’s take the time to stop the world and pay attention to our hearts. Our attention is like a spotlight. Feelings live in our body parts, and when we shine the light of our attention on specific body parts, memories crack open and move, dissolving the hard hold they have on us. Shapeshifting through feelings as they come up will open us up to their messages, their symbols and their signals.

One of the single-most powerful acts we can do is to share our vulnerability. The more we open up and dance through our feelings, the safer the environment becomes to explore our edges. These dances will be our offering to the bigger world. They will be our prayers for peace.

- Jonathon Horan





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25 February 2009

what do you want to do with your one precious life?

At what point to we finally be and do what we had always dreamed?
When did we stop dreaming in the possibility that our lives could be everything we could imagine?
Magic making or wishful thinking, you might say. I say, so what? Why not?

Time is ticking and if we don't set the course for our lives, no one else sure as hell will.

What is it that you want to do with your one precious life?

Time to stop the clock, check in with your heart, and dig down deep to find those buried dreams. Pull them out, dust them off, shine them up. It's time. Don't waste another minute waiting, wanting, wishing.

words to myself, echoing to open ears......are you listening out there????

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14 February 2009

a way of life

lately, I've noticed that the way I am living right now is not exactly the life I love. Not that it isn't great and I am not appreciative for all of the wonderful things I am, have and do. It is more about HOW I am living my life. everything I do, from my everyday life at home to the boardroom in business is reflection of my authentic self. Or, at least, that is what I have done in the past naturally and aspire to daily. There has been a slowly creeping change going on in my life that I have somehow allowed to change the way I live.
The stress and strain of business over the last 18 months has diminished my spirit and stolen my energy. How did I let that happen? You see, things just dont happen "to" us. They just happen. We can either get hooked and tossed aside or we can see them for what they are and STILL take care.

So, I had this amazing conversation yesterday. What I came to realize is that I don't lack enthusiasm {and I do believe in the divine}, I just lack the energy that I am used to - the energy that feeds my spirit and nourishes my soul. It is taking time for the little things, inside and out. Not really about balance, more about living the life I am longing for. No more longing, just living.

{who among us does not wish to dare to love life fully and trust the wild and true energies of their heart?} asks, Paula Reeves in her jungian-centered prose called Heart Sense.

throw complacency out the window and let your wildness dance in the dark room with wild abandon.
as Rumi is my muse, my life fulfills my longings. what am I waiting for? time to get movin'.......

here I go.




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